The books I read to my children 

… and how they speak to me now. 

Two boys were born from my womb into this world.

As a nurturing lady I loved the feeding and the bath fun and then the clean pyjamas and the book

A favourite that still is in my possession is, We're going on a bear hunt.

The refrain that was read again and again. The opening of pages together and the repeat. The cycle of sharing books continued with the grandsons. 

Should it be the biggest surprise then that the words are planted in my head!

Deeper still the words are found in my mind as I experience the hills and valleys of life of growing older. Losing loved ones. A nana , mum, dad and friends.  

Words shared with the little ones back then echo at a deeper level with a profound message that repeated its refrain,

You can't go under it, you can't go around it, you have to go through it. 

The truth is a kiss that says you can do this journey, you can go through it. Brave and fearfulness still grip the soul of me. Yet the firm foothold on the grit of the road step after step knowing avoidance is not how to do this. Its the steadfast hope looming for the bigger dream. A God dream. God-colours. I'm walking with a firmer step now. The journey through offerslight vibrant not grey. Distinctive. 

The next book is so very tiny. It offers a joy to read and the pictures are a delight.

Can't you sleep little bear?

The light in this story is never quite enough. A bigger lantern is brought in to create a better experience and eradicate the dark.

Stepping out to the moon offers the real experience. A full moon fills the whole being with light. 

Contentment brings rest. Light becomes enough. Oh the beauty of a child's story. The dark all around can be troublesome and frightening, yet how we are healed and restored as we experience the best of lights. A beauty and a wonder at the chromatography of God inside us. We can be so aware of our darkness about our world. Look up there's a bigger light and a illumination in the Christ who brings the Light to us. 

Grace instead of a hammer that knocks us back and makes me cower. Greater Grace. I'm only just touching the surface of it. The Love of it. The hand in my journey through and the Light beaming its best redemptive story into my world. 

I know Jesus has it covered . 

I've just to trust. 


Rach x


Hope in the dark

She gathers the words of the song 

*We’re gonna break into the night

She hears Laura’s words on Radio 4 

The ache of living goes deep into her belly. 

The Hope instead of despair

The healing instead of broken-hearted 

The bouquet instead of ashes 

Grace emerges

She offers it up 

A sacrifice of praise

She weeps into the darkness 

Sings the songs as a child of God 

She knows Hope 

The now and not yet 


With prayer we build with our songs our poems our buildings our projects our art, our listening.

Justice triumphs 

My Note :-

Did you hear the woman on Radio 4? Laura Rutherford a Samaritans volunteer interviewed by Julia Bradbury. Supporting clients who are suicidal . A moving inspirational commitment to care shared there. 

How we need a hope inside us. 

How daily we need refreshing into our Hope. 

How much we need to encourage one another to rise . 

As I drink my coffee and pray, I find  a space to breathe and a hope rooted inside me that in the days I struggle, and I do, I can know this Hope that is Christ in me. 

Be rooted and established in love 
Ephesians 3:14-19The Message 

My response is 
to get down on my knees before the Father, 

this magnificent Father 
who parcels out 
all heaven and earth. 
I ask him to 
strengthen you by his Spirit—

not a brute strength 
but a glorious inner strength—that Christ will live in you as you open the door and invite him in. 
And I ask him that with both feet planted firmly on love, 
you’ll be able to take in with all followers of Jesus 
the extravagant dimensions of Christ’s love. 
Reach out and experience the breadth! 
Test its length! 
Plumb the depths! 
Rise to the heights! 
Live full lives, 
full in the fullness of God

Notes :-

*Song  words quoted is from the above album 

City on Fire

 by Joel Barber

**Start Strong: Resolve to be Different – Jessica Bailey – 25 Jan 2017 -Prayer 24/7 – quoted Tom Wright